Positive Birth Story
I had spent much of my pregnancy refusing to think about this birth due to fear of a repeat of my first traumatic birth four years ago. I was seeing a different midwife at each appointment and was not going to write a birth. I couldnt even read about giving birth. Looking back I can see my state of mind and the fear that consumed me could have led to a self fulfilling prophecy. Luckily deep down I must have known something within me needed to change. I just didn't know then what an amazing journey I was embarking on. One that has changed me so much as a person. Firstly I forced myself to start reading The Positive Birth Book by Milli Hill and what a turning point this was.
A few years previously someone on Facebook mentioned they had a doula supporting them with their birth. The idea of someone I knew being there, advocating for me (I felt the midwife didn't listen to me or respect me first time around) resonated with me.
The Birth of Reuben
A day before I turned 37 weeks pregnant I was due into the hospital for a scan, to see if Reuben had turned yet as he was lying breech throughout my whole pregnancy. I’d already prepared an argument in my head about not wanting an ECV (they sounded painful, distressing for Mum and Baby, and not always successful) so I lay on the sonographers bed that afternoon in hope that he’d turned. But of course, he hadn’t! So we went down to the consultant to discuss my options, and that’s where things escalated a lot quicker than I’d expected.
The Birth of Robyn
I found out I was pregnant in October 2017 and I knew from the very start that I wanted to to have a natural birth. Unfortunately from the point that we announced our pregnancy at the end of December, all of my mummy friends and colleagues had already started to fill my head with horror gory birthing stories and i knew i needed to hear some positive words if I was going to achieve my goal. I did some online searching and followed some links on positive birthing and birthing without fear. Through my online searches I found the Scottish Doula Jen Muir of 'Badass Birthing' and after a short email chat with her, I signed myself and my husband up to a workshop she was leading in March 2018, Glasgow.
Our Birth Story
Our birth story...
Well We didn't make it to our homebirth and we didn't make it into the birth pool... BUT I Had the most incredible and healing birth that I didn't know I needed so badly.
So on Thursday I woke up and a usually 3 year old sets the pace of life and I kinda thought I had leaked my pee somehow. Anyway I stuck a pad on just Incase and went about my day. I dyed my hair...thankfully lol!
I was leaking on and off all day but tried not to think too much of it I was 37+5 weeks.
Bed time for toddler face came and took a while but all settled in bed 9pm and just dosing off and the trickle started...and didn't feel like it was gonna stop. I literally lept out of bed.and woooosh!